Well..... we did it again.... we didn't write on your birthday, didn't donate..... or the same for your anniversary...... but you were in our thoughts as always. We lit our candle at the time you were born and the time you died. We bought cards as we always do. You would of started high school this year and that hit hard..... another milestone that we miss out on with you..... it never gets any easier, trust me. We lit our candle again tonight, got a picture of you with the boys in the background, the only way we can ever have the 4 of you together 💔 Merry Christmas darling girl and a happy 11th birthday (sorry we didn't post) the guilt cuts me deep 😢 All our love today, always and forever Love you forever, your heartbroken Mummy, Daddy, Alex, Oliver & Freddie xxxxx

Here it is.......... I feel I need to do this........... Sorry....... A simple word, but so hard to say sometimes 💔 Heres an apology Ellie Grace. We didn't send a birthday wish, or light a birthday candle on here this year.......... Or buy you a birthday balloon and send to you like we ALWAYS have....... We also weren't at home at the time you were born to light your candle...... like we ALWAYS have.......... We also didn't write an anniversary message....... All I can say is life is hectic..... a whirlwind........... 3 boys......me & daddy working (3 of my own businesses for me, a office manager for daddy) the house.......... Football training twice a week, swimming for all 3, 6am bootcamp, Friday night cricket or football, Saturday football or mummy working..... A distraction method maybe?????????? To distract us away from the fact that it is 10 years since we became parents...... but also 10 years since we lost you and a piece of us at the same time...... 10 years is a massive milestone in a child's life..... double figures..... a decade...... 10 years is also a long time...... but also it feels like no time at all....... Olivers birthday 8 days before yours, I can feel the emotion rising..... My birthday 12 days after loosing you..... I feel the emotion...... because also 6 days after my birthday is the day we buried you...... All these thoughts go through my mind...... the guilt builds up...... that we haven't left a message on here....... people won't notice, they won't say anything..... but I know, and it kills me...... it makes me feel like I've forgotten about you..... we haven't....... we wouldn't....... how could we?????? Were just doing what we're supposed to do...... get on with life..... that we certainly do with your 3 little brothers..... they make it very hectic...... but you need to know this..... you are NEVER EVER very far from our thoughts..... EVER..... in everything we do...... I just NEEDED to say this...... We love you Always Ellie Grace Beaumont and we will NEVER FORGET YOU 💔 Happy 10th birthday, 10th anniversary and Merry Christmas all rolled into 1. All our love Mummy, Daddy, Alex, Oliver & Freddie xxxxxx

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